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hey ppls,

I'm back! ooookay then...what have you missed. well my wish to die has become stronger now. MY parents still fucking hate me and I still fucking hate them too. I've changed school and I don't talk to anyone. I wish I was invisible. ppl try to talk to me everyday but I just stare off into space like I can't hear them.

I've found it easier to be me when I have no one to talk to. My grades have become extremely good, I've always got time on my hands so now I get to go to the pond and just sit around painting. I sound like my mother now.

I'm still a slut. BIG SURPRISE!! not rele. but its gotton so bad that if I run into any of my old guy friends they usually wanna go do something with me...and then they try to talk to me afterward but I just walk away.

I guess the only reason I write these stupid entries id becuz I want to see how u react. I wanna know if anyone out there is exactly like me.

so wat r ur problems?

CaTT

my parents decided to send me away for the weekend...I guess they were too pissed off to even look at me...o well. this wouldn't be the first time.

A part of me wants to bond with my parents...I mean one of them is related to me. that should count for something, but then another part of me hates them so much it makes me want to kill them. Even my little sister rules over me. SHE GETS TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO!! Its so fucking unfair. I wish I could make them feel the way they make me feel everyday even if its just for a minute, that would be long enough.

catt

yea, its been a while, but this time wasn't my fault. as u all should probably kno, I HATE MY PARENTS!!!! and of course, they hate me just as well. Well, catherine being the idiot she is, snuck out with a boy and got caught with his hands on her chest....yes thats right. call me a slut if u want idc. my mom practically jumped out of the car while it was still in motion, grabbed me by my neck, and thro me into the car door and this all happened infront of the guy who I snuck out with. after seeing my mom, he sprinted picked up his bike and speed off. I was so scared that m mom was gonna kill me. She ended up leaving me with a bruised up back, a bruise or two on my arms and legs. and cuts all over my body, including my face. I've been scared to leave my basement ecer since it happened. I'm surprise I didn't break anything this time, but there is a dent on the car.

the boy I was with hasn't called my house, it doesn't matter its not like we're dating.(yea...thats right....) and what makes it worse, my friend turned her back on me when I told her what had happened....apparently she likes the guy I was with.

1. He agreed to do it too....so its not just me seducing him(she still likes him.
2. I just got the living shit beat out of me!!!! and ur turn ur back on me!!!
3. omg! hes just a boy!!!! u can have him!!!! please don't ruin our friendship becuz of him
4. next time tell me when u like one of my friend so it doesn't happen again!!!!

OK!!! I ADMIT I WAS WRONG!!!! BUT NO ONE DESERVES TO BE HURT THAT BAD BY THEIR OWN MOTHER!!! NO ONE!!!!

w/e. catt

okay....I have no reason for not being on in a while.....just been caught up in reading I guess......

new things that happened: too many to name.....I broke my thumb from volleyball camp.....yea, its hard to type and write now!!! and it hurts A LOT!!! ummmmm I got to talk to my real dad on the phone.....I kno it my not seem like a big thing but this guys has been missing for more than 14 years. so yea... uhhhhhhh hmmmm...o yea. rumors are still floating around, expecially the one with free bj, which every once in a while I have some weird person ask for one. ugh. boys these days.

I can't wait till school starts....u all might hate school. but its basically the only thing that gets me out of this hell. and please God let this be a better year than last year. :)

catt

6-3-07

TOMORROW iS JULY 4TH! HOORAY! NOT RELE. i'M NOT DOiN ANYTHiNG AND YOU KNOW WHY, BECAUSE i HAVE LAZY ASS PARENTS. URG!!! WELL i KNOW i HAVEN'T WRiTEN iN LiKE THREE DAYS, BUT i RELE HAVE NOTHING TO DAY, SO SOME ONE PLEASE COMMENT ME AND MAKE MY DAY.

iF YOU DO THANX!

CATT